My evangelical, fundamentalist, pastor husband said I was just "having a crisis of faith" or "struggling with doubt". To me, it just felt like someone had turned the light on in the pitch-black room I'd been locked in all of my life. The brightness was shocking! It took time for my "spiritual eyes" to adjust. But once they did, the real shocker was seeing that the place I'd been living in all of my life - which I had been told on a daily basis was "pure and holy" - was act